I promised to post some before pictures since I have started my Nutrisystem journey. This is a really hard post for me. I took these pictures in a dressing room, trying to find some tops that fit. I didn’t have much luck there but did find a couple at Target. These pictures were taken right before I started bawling in the dressing room because it was the first time in a LONG time that I actually looked at myself in a mirror.
We don’t have full length mirrors in our house. When I brush my teeth, I don’t sit & stare in the mirror because I know I won’t be happy with what I see. I avoid looking at my reflection in the glass when I am walking up to Target or any other store. I avoid having my picture taken. Honestly, until I saw these pictures & really LOOKED at myself in that mirror (and those awful store lights GEEZ!), I didn’t realize the damage I had done to my body with my overeating. I thought I was still “just” a 1X, not a 2X or more. I thought I was still in size 16 jeans. When those jeans wouldn’t even come up halfway, I knew that I was in deep denial.
You know what I would have done before after sobbing in the dressing room? I would have come home & drowned my sorrows in food. While it is true that I went to eat lunch with my 14 year old son directly after, I had already planned on what restaurant we were going to & I knew they had a light menu that I would be perfectly happy with (and I was right!)
Tonight at dinner, I made a mistake. My youngest son came home with a fever from school & has been sick all day. So, dinner didn’t get made. Hubby came home & was dead tired so he asked if I could grab something. I did the right thing…I looked up the menu & nutritional info of the take out place on my phone. What I didn’t realize was, since it was so small on my phone, I was looking at calories from fat, NOT the overall calorie count! I didn’t realize until I had eaten it all. So, that meal was about 350 calories more than I expected. But you know what? I didn’t freak out. I didn’t say “Well, screw it! Since I messed up already, might as well eat this whole pint of ice cream!”. It was a mistake on my part because I didn’t read the right column but it doesn’t mean I throw my hands in the air & give up. Just the opposite, in fact. I am learning & I am a work in progress. I may hate these pictures that I am posting here but I post them as a reminder that this is where I never want to be again. I want to be healthy & a brand new, HEALTHIER Tara!
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